My Life with Aspergers and M.E. as a Husband and Father

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chat.friday 2nd october .020

Posted on October 2, 2020 at 4:35 AM Comments comments (23)

very very UNAWARE  how much more i can take of the Pain  BEFORE aAmbulance is called  ..it is taking a great  deal OUT  of ME  

all i am getting from the hospital is  MAZE OF FORMS TO FILL IN .every week this is ..very low very down ..the  Past three  days have  been

TOTAL HELL .Pain  has  GONE TREBLE  .what a DISASTER I AM .. BECAUSE  i have BOTH Bladder and Bowel problems  I HAVE BEEN 

VERY .EXTRA WET ,SHITTY  .been needing HELP there .if i bend over I AM ON THE FLOOR ..very very UN happy very SAD   i am 

I AM ALIVE  in the Hospital forms one of the Questions that was ASKED   was .WOULD I /HAVE I TRED  to Take my Own Life  ....

Because of PAIN ..,, MY REPLY  ..NO ..AND  THAT IS ,100  PER CENT  .. 

just sad upset  down  .the SLIGHTEST  thing i do .stand up .turn  walk aroun  PAIN  GOES TO EXSTREME .i would say  in the Post 

Today OR tomorrow  will be MORE FORMS  to FILL IN  from the Hospital .feeling  very HURT DAMAGED ,i can NOT   see  feel  even 

a tiny thing to Laugh  be funny .i am being woken up in the Night  .TWICE EVERY NIGHT ..PAIN ,, starts in my TOES 


See You in My Dreams  , Mark

chat .friday11th September.020

Posted on September 11, 2020 at 9:45 AM Comments comments (0)

Lot forms filling in ..  i got  a Pain  NURSE   chat on Telephone/Hospital appointment  

in Pain 7 days a week.  MORE  WORSE Days  than a better day  .my Left Knee  is latest Pain  it LOCKS   

New Tablets  BUT  these  THEY THINK  are making BOTH  my Bladder/Bowel problems  lot lot WORSE  

nearly treble accidents  so i am VERY VERY EXTRA  WET AND SHITTY ..all so means EXTRA NAPPY RASHES 

feel very ALONE  very  Isolatted .it is bad enough having too WEAR Adult Nappies .Sores get RED RARE  

VERY difficult just trying to sit in a chair for 10 mins  ..m.e FIBRO.. carpol tunnel syndrome  list goes on  .i sit down 

the WORSE is trying to stan up PAIN SHOOTS UP   i fall back down  on the chair .BEEN  CARPET FEW TIMES 

feeling very very LET DOWN ..very very SAD /UPSET /HURT 


   mark

Research,TAKING PART,thursday23rd.020

Posted on July 23, 2020 at 3:15 AM Comments comments (2)

THIS IS FOR ,ENGLAND ONLY ALL  PARENTS INVITED  

Researcher,CHLOE BLACKWELL  .LOUGHBOROUGH UNIVERSITY 


it is about Parents.health .money..costs   CHLOE is very INTERESTED IN  ..FATHERS  WHO HAVE  AUTISM/ASPERGERS  AND 

THEY HAVE ONE CHILD OR MORE THAN ONE  WHO HAS AUTISM/ASPERGERS 

Lets here from you  .i can give any body Chloe  e.mail  OR  i can Pass  on  that persons e.mail to  Chloe .

this research ENDS  End of August this  year ..so come on Parents mums/dads  you want understanding /awareness  BY TAKING PART 

You get this .any body got any Questions You can ask CHLOE 

MYSELF AND CHLOE  WANT REPLIES  YOU WANT YOUR VIEWS /VOICES HEARD GET REPLYING  


  Mark And CHLOE

Hospital Appointment.saturday 11thjuly.020

Posted on July 11, 2020 at 9:10 AM Comments comments (0)

very very down low upset is a understatement ..there are NO Cliffs here  SO I AM SAFE IN THAT WAY 

10.20  appointment was for thursday  ..11.45 still nothing  so i telephoned the HOSPITAL  ware i am told APPOINTMENT  ..CANCELLED 

i knwe NOTHING OF THIS . not only that  but the SPEALIST had been ringing BUT IT WAS OUR OLD ADDRESS NUMBER   ..yet 

last month I HAD A DIFFERENT SPEACILST TELEPHONE FROM SAME HOSPITAL  and they got THROUGH  i spoke too them 

SO I am left waiting for a NEW TELEPHONE/HOSPITAL APPOINTMENT  ..long wait  could be ..IN THE MEAN TIME THIS MESS UP  BY 

THE DAM F   IN   HOSPITAL  HAS MADE MY PAIN A LOT WORSE ... the pain in my left leg corsing me too WET /SHIT  MYSELF  LOT MORE 

i am very UN aWARE  OF HOW MUCH MORE I CAN  take .i am sleeping  3 times IN THE DAY TIME EVERY DAY THIS IS  ..very very  NAUSEA 

people never see the every day effects . very very very OFTEN  most days i sit down  have a very very very good CRY RUNNY SNOTTY NOSE 

i really think this is SAVING ME  ...i am in a lot lot more PAIN /SUFFERING BECAUSE  ..THERE MESS UP P SSED OFF /FED UP   it  is bad 

enough with the M.E . Carpol tunnel syndrome  .they want a fork put some ware IT HAS NOT SEEN DARKNESS BEFORE ..and  THEY  want 

to FEEL THE PAIN  .. really really sad upset Angry  ..if i do NOT  do any more blogs or any more e.mail  replys  it is because I AM IN HOSPITAL 

what shame what disgracace I FEEL  TOWARDS  THESE PEOPLE  and  MYSELF 

    Mark,

Autism/aspergers saturday 11th july 020

Posted on July 11, 2020 at 9:00 AM Comments comments (0)

Autism /Aspergers


BUT  what is happening and becoming  very very COMMON  IS ..


  Autism/Aspergers ..TRANS GENDER   TRANS SEXUAL 

who does blogs about these ..who writes  about these 


      mark

chat ,saturday 4th July..020

Posted on July 4, 2020 at 7:15 AM Comments comments (0)

Got a Telephone Hospital Appointment this thursday morning .see how this goes 

Pain  totally in my Toes and Angles 


   Disability ,Nudity/Nudism 

has any Disability done any of this .what did you think /do  does any Disability do a blog or You Tube  about 

Disability  Nudity /Nudism

WHY  because OUR BODIES  are DIFFERENT  not too be seen,  made ashamed made feel dirty   DISGRACE 

so when aware how  think/feel  WHY  Disablity Nudity/Nudism  how do YOU think feel about YOUR BODY 


   mark,see you all in my dreams


Bodyissues.Sexual Abuse,saturday26thJune.020

Posted on June 27, 2020 at 7:35 AM Comments comments (0)

it took a lot lot  years BEFORE   i could UNDERSTAND .  some things i still do NOT  ..questions i very often ask MYSELF   .making  it

Even more CONFUSING ..way i used too think /feel 

My Body is a Crime .still think /feel this way

when the sexual abuse was being done too me .WHY COULD GOD NOT WALK IN PICK ME UP .SAVE ME

Thinking that Semen is Urine/Wee 

Thinking that KYJELLY is SNOT 

the list goes on  BEING DISABLED  made so much WORSE  .. it was all so  SEEING RIGHT IN FRONT OF ME 

What was being DONE  too MY FAILED BODY And There  Bodies ..one had Pubic Hair  the Other had ..NO...Pubic Hair 

the Pain alone of Sexual Abuse IS LIKE NO OTHER .

while talking about,Sexual Abuse . i get very very very UPSET/HURT  . it is VERY GOOD  when sexual abuse is TALKED ABOUT   and Men

HOW EVER  and it is very very big HOW EVER ..it should be STATED  MADE VERY VERY CLEAR  that ..NOT...NOT ALL MEN  ARE  like 

This .it looks very very very BAD ON MYSELF AND  OTHERS ..no-way i am like that .it was bad enough what HAPPENED  what was  DONE 

     mark, see you in my Dreams


Thunder/Lightening, saturday20th June.020

Posted on June 20, 2020 at 8:05 AM Comments comments (0)

before i talk about this . had few FALLS . CRASH   .constant Pain  .if i go too slow Pain goes Hyper .turn a corner Pain  SHARPENS 

Down  BOTH Legs/sides  often my toes/feet i can hardly FEEL ..Wheel Chairs coming too get me .I AM DREADING . STANDING  UP

Bending over Making me really Angry .what a COMPLETE Disater/Failor ..if one thing HELPS ME .it is too have a GOOD Cry  .a Runny Snotty 

Nose down my Cheeks  .VERY OFTEN  .i can NOT sit for that long before Pain INTERFEARS 


THUNDER/LIGHTENING  

have ALL WAYS EFFECECTED  ME VERY BADLY   ..SENORIES  ..

Bladder AND bowels .i do LEAK more than any other time Diarrehea  more RUNNY PAINFUL . Very very Soaked WET SHITTY NAPPIES  

Even more so  Thundering .Lightening 

Sexual Abuse  when there is Thundering/Lightening is a lot lot Worse .I WANT TOO VOMIT ALL OVER ..only time  i ever felt SAVE  is when i have 

VOMITED . this is on top of having a BIG FEAR OF Vomiting BUT   i do FEEL soo much BETTER  AFTER I HAVE Vomited . it  DEPENDS ON 

HOW BAD I AM ..IF I AM not  THAT  BAD THEN ..MOSTLY  what HELPS   is having a very good Runny Snotty  Nose DOWN  my Cheeks 

i had a e.mail very RECENTLY  and that person said to me .just been on your Blog .WHY  DO PEOPLE..NOT ..TALK LIKE YOU DO 

Thank You for  that

                                      Mark. see you in my dreams .how ever far i can make it

healthissues ,saturday13thJune.020

Posted on June 13, 2020 at 8:05 AM Comments comments (0)

i got a letter of the  TELEPHONE Hospital appointment i had 

i got  t-score SPINE 3,4   and in the LEFT Hip  i got t-score of -1.9  very very PAINFUL 

THEN  in this letter it says  I COULD HAVE,,SYNOVITIS  . not a clue what that is . i am not going too look it up .would give me Melt down 

Migraines/Vomiting  few times at the WORST  five times a day .

if i walk too fast PAIN  GOES  HYPER .if i Knock my self a tiny bit PAIN GOES  HYPER ..

i am waiting for  a Telephone call or a Letter from, Pain Management Team 

because i have Asperger  MOST  of  my ISSUES  are  soo Senory  i have FEAR OF Vomiting .this DOES  happen two times a DAY 

Migraines then M.E .Bocked Chest .Bladder/Bowel i can very often be very WET  very SHITTY  .AT THE SAME TIME  .the list goes on 

i can be LEAKING FOR FIVE MINS ..AFTER ..EACH..FLOOD ..my Energy  DROPS like any thing 

i could carry a bucket around  STILL WOULD NOT HELP .  ..i have lots/LOTS T issues in my Pockets .Trousers  .coat .under my Pillow 

Heavy Floods Snot all over 

my Angles /Feet are the WORST for Pain .HAVING TOO -TIP-TOE-AROUNG .can not put my feet flat  .can not do my shoe lases up

just trying too Stand i I FALL BACK DOWN..What a Disater what a FAILOR 

                                  Mark

update .tuesday 9th June 020

Posted on June 9, 2020 at 2:45 AM Comments comments (0)

taking two lots new tablets make me very Nausea Vomiting .dizzy .one tablet i take every day the other i take  once a week .my Ancles 

are very Painful too stand on.taking tablets make my bladder and bowels Worse ,very very often i am   Wet and Shitty SAME TIME ..so very 

Draining .Hayfever  very Runny Snot alll over Again so Draining THIS Then makes my Migraines Worse  ware again i am very Nausea then i 

am Vomiting.I NEVER AT ANY TIME FEEL SORRY FOR MYSELF ..last week had hospital appointment by TELEPHONE ..they are going too 

put me on too  A NEW TEAM . this could take some time because all this Lockdown ..WARE ARE PEOPLE TOO TALK TO .WARE ARE PEOPLE 

LISTEN ..this FRIDAY my Birthday VERY SUPRISED MAKE IT TO THIS AGE  with the Sexual Abuse and LATEST HEALTH  ISSUES ..i

do NOT think for asecond that I Put myself down or have a go at myself .OTHER PEOPLE DO THIS FOR ME .there views/judgements and 

THEY are NOT  effected by these health issues .sun shinning very bright here .TROUBLE  woke up this morning .very SOAKED Wet /Shitty 

Nappy/PAD  REALY SORE NAPPY RASH.and on MY PILLOW  Runny Snotty Hayfever .my cheeks was Covered as well .all sorts of Tablets 

Medine i have TREID .nothing helps .few MADE LOT WORSE ..my IBS Painful Runny SOOO Shitty .i am taking NOT Aday at a time .BUT I AM TAKING  HALF A DAY AT A TIME ..who has  Friends .who has any body Talk too .WITH MYSELF ONE THING ANY BODY GETS FROM ME IS

HOW ARE YOU.WHAT HAVE YOU BEEN DOING .WARE ARE YOU .if i got any of this I WOULD FAINT 


                Mark, see you all in my Dreams 


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